Well, it has finally been a year and nothing. It is really hard to keep your head up when you just don't understand what is wrong. I'm a good person---John is a good person, and we would make good parents. I just don't get it! John always says my blogs are depressing, but I do try to write happy things, too. Maybe someone will read my blog and know what I'm going through and offer up some advice. Then again, probably not because I don't think anyone reads my blog, except for John and maybe Chris Calabro and Jeanette (John's mom). Anyway, I don't know what else to say, so I'll use a song to speak for me.
Smile, though your heart is aching.
Smile, even though it's breaking.
Though there are clouds in the sky,
you get by...
If you smile through your fears and sorrows.
Smile and maybe tomorrow
You'll see the sun come shining through.
If you just light up your face with gladness,
Hide every trace of sadness.
Although a tear may be ever, ever so near.
That's the time you must keep on trying.
Smile, what's the use of crying?
You'll find life is worthwhile
If you'll just smile, come on and smile.
If you just smile.
Song by: Lyle Lovett (Hope Floats Soundtrack)