Thursday, May 01, 2008

Goodbye is the Hardest Word


My brother Michael is dying. I think I'll being saying my final goodbyes to him later on today....and I don't want to. The brain cancer is getting worse! The tumors are growing, and he is showing more signs that his body is struggling to survive. He has had a couple of seizures, and he has injured his back because of them. He was admitted to Littleton Hospital yesterday to the ICU. He has several fractures on his back and a blood clot in his lungs. He is very disoriented, although yesterday when I was there he woke up briefly because he was going to have a MRI....he said hi Michele. That might be the last time I hear my brother speak in recoginition. I don't know! My parents will be speaking with the Brain Surgeon today to hear the outcome of what they can do. I know my brother wants to live but not as a vegetable, so if they can't help him than I'll most likely will be saying goodbye to my brother. It doesn't look good for him and I think his body is tired and ready to let go.
(The picture above was taken when Michael was first diagnosed with brain cancer. As months progressed his body swelled up from all the steroids and other medications he was on. Towards the end he didn't look like the same person.)

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