Heat Wave

It was 98 degrees today....I hate this hot weather!!! It's only June and we are already having record high temps....these are temperatures you see in August not June. Give me 75 degrees everyday, and I'll be a happy camper.

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BLAHHHHHHHHH

Here is a picture of a dog that was overfed donuts and beer by its previous owners....very sad!!!! Bastards!

Anyway, I'm using this picture, because I feel like a flabby, flab flab!!!! I need to do some DDR later....I can't let the flab win!

These Are Days

Band Shot closing out the AC for 2005/2006 year!

These Are Days
These are the days
These are days you’ll remember
Never before and never since, I promise
Will the whole world be warm as this
And as you feel it,
You’ll know it’s true
That you are blessed and lucky
It’s true that you
Are touched by something
That will grow and bloom in you

These are days that you’ll remember
When May is rushing over you
With desire to be part of the miracles
You see in every hour
You’ll know it’s true
That you are blessed and lucky
It’s true that you are touched
By something that will grow and bloom in you

These are days
These are the days you might fill
With laughter until you break
These days you might feel
A shaft of light
Make its way across your face
And when you do
Then you’ll know how it was meant to be
See the signs and know their meaning
It's true
Then you’ll know how it was meant to be
Hear the signs and know they’re speaking
To you, to you

Here is the song we did a video for in November's AC. We also did a Real World spoof, but we haven't seen it put together yet. See, three people in Adventure Club, also in the video, turned against all of us for some deranged reason. Actually, what it comes down to is overly dramatic lover's triangle between them and instead of dealing with our reactions they've written off the group. Aaron was really close to these people, so he was having a hard time editing. I can only imagine! Just seeing the video with them in it was a little hard....it's as if these people have died....sad.

Anyway, despite all the drama and hard times.....Thanks for the memories....until next season with the remaining cool ACers it won't be long until we meet again. :)

A happy shot of everyone that came to the end of the year Adventure Club. From forward to back: Minka, John, Kevin, Greg, Me, Shawn, Aaron, Colleen, Mike, and Adriana.

Let the beatings begin! Some Russian Volleyball in City Park with from left to right: John, Kevin, Shawn, Aaron, and Minka. Good times!!!

John and I in front of the Louisville Historical Museum. Getting cozy with my Boo!

Redstone Meadery tour with AC. Aaron and John feeling the Mead. "Do you have any Grey Poupon?"

JCOS 35th Reunion

This is me at my 35th Reunion at Jefferson County Open School, JCOS. I realize I'm not 35 and obviously I haven't been out of school for 35 years. It is a reunion of all the graduating classes, since the beginning of the school. I graduated in 1990. The high school was originally in Evergreen, Colorado, and it was known as Mountain Open High School.

The elementary and junior high were located in Golden in a school named Tanglewood Open School. I started at Tanglewood in 1985 when I was in 8th grade. I had visited the school a year before to tour it, and I fell instantly in love with the school. I had hated school up until this point in my life. I was happy to finally find a place where I fit. A lot of people like me were into the arts....and I knew their was no other place I wanted to be.

This is Corielyn and me. I helped Corie with her play that she wrote, directed, and acting in. I also was on the Southwest Tour Trip with her along with Steve and Phil as the teachers. We took about 13 junior high students to Southwest part of Colorado, Arizona (Navajo reservation), and New Mexico. We had a blast!

During the 2000/2001 school year at JCOS, I worked as an aide and a Disabled Child's Aide. Steve Shaver, the secondary school psychologist, and the man in the back three over from the right was my boss. One of my favorite jobs!!!!

This is me with two of my favorite teachers on my graduation day---Bruce Andrews and Dana Orin (now Sutton).

This is a picture of me with Lauren Bogard during my graduation from Jefferson County Open School. Lauren is Jeff and Susie's kid, she went to Hawaii with us along with her brother, Logan.

This is a picture of me on the Border Trip when I was in 11th grade. We were studying the border of Mexico and the United States. The teacher I went with was named Brian...he was there at the reunion...great to see old friends.

Here is a picture of me when I was in 9th grade, I think or maybe 8th...can't remember. I went on the Navajo Work Trip with the junior high, at the time known as Tanglewood, and the high school.

I decorated a tile for the Tile Project they are doing at the school. The tiles will be displayed in the school in some way, they aren't sure yet. The theme is, "What Peace means to you?" The tile still needs to be painted and fired, but this is my mark and contribution.

Fish decorations created by the elementary school of JCOS.

A look at the inside of the school with people chatting away during the Ice Cream Social. Walking in the background is Corielyn Cummins, a girl I helped direct her play when she was a student and I was an aid.

A shot of the people who showed up the next day at the school on 10th and Wadsworth for the Ice Cream Social.

Me and my Boo Boo hanging out in the corner taking it all in.

An amazing group of people...very overwhelming, but great to see so many graduating classes coming together to share a common love.

Great way to introduce the Open School! This school has the greatest display of community and family...everyone's voice matters here and is heard!!!!

The original principal of the Open School is Arnie. I never had him for my principal, he retired the year before I attended the high school, but I have always heard great things about the man. He gave an enjoyable speech....I wish the same could be said for others but oh well.

Me with the JCOS retired secretary, Marilyn. She went on the Hawaii trip with Susie and Jeff Bogard. I was one of the students on that trip.

John and I had just arrived for the JCOS 35th Reunion taking place at the Belmar Center in Lakewood. I'm overwhelmed...probably the reason for the nervous look on my face.

Chocolate Baby

Here is a cute picture of a little bear named George that traveled to California with Jackie and I in June of 2002. John let me bring George along, so I would have something to remind me of my love. He sprayed George with CK1 for good measure. This picture is from one of the Piers in San Francisco. Jackie and I stopped at the Rocky Mountain Chocolate Factory to get a picture of George with a large bear. We had so much fun in San Francisco! Can't wait to go back.

John and I might go back to California sometime in the near future. If we go, we will definitely have to see if this bear is still there with his "Gimme Some Chocolate" shirt. Mmmmmmmmm.....chocolate!!!! :)

News so Far

I had my Post-Op appointment on Friday, the 19th, to hear about what the doctor found and such. I have mild Endometriosis, a couple of small Fibroid Tumors(benign growths), and a couple of small cysts on my ovaries. This was the first time I heard about the cysts, which caught me off guard. Apparently, I had an ultrasound done 5 years ago to see if they could see the cause to my menstrual cramps. On the ultrasound, she could see a couple of small cysts, but they weren't effecting ovulation or my menstrual cycles. Poly Cystic Ovarian Syndrome a.k.a. PCOS, the official name for cysts on the ovaries, can keep you from ovulating and having monthly cycles. Thankfully hasn't been a problem for me!

Anyway, it all comes down to why am I not getting pregnant, since none of my conditions should be effecting me in that way. Drumroll, please.....I have unexplained infertility!!! That is what the doctor calls it. Whatever! Apparently, this stuff must be having some kind of effect, because they can all cause infertility and I have them, so what gives. I don't get it! Maybe just being cleared of the Endo and having the dye run through my fallopian tubes will be enough to help me get pregnant. I'm very hopefully, and I know it will happen.

Nintendo Wii

John and I watched on streaming video the announcement of the new Nintendo system called Wii. It goes on sale sometime in the fourth quarter of 2006. It comes out with a new Zelda game, so that will be very cool. Looks great! John and I will be waiting in line for the new Nintendo. It's going to be so cool! Wiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii........:)

It's Finally Over!

All went well with my surgery yesterday. The doctor found some mild Endometriosis, and she removed it. She said my fallopian tubes looked great, and she doesn't see a problem with me getting pregnant. She said that even with the Endo amount I had, she said I still could of gotten pregnant. Obviously, it was having some effect, but I've heard that even just having my tubes flushed can make a difference, too. I'm so happy that all is great, and I'm really not in a lot of pain. My stomach is sore....I feel like a did a thousand crunches at once!:) I also feel a little shaky, but that is probably related to all the drugs in my system trying to leave. It won't be long until Operation Baby Boo is back on! And we'll all Float On okay-yay! The picture above is me with my new friend named Endo...John bought him for me after the surgery. So sweet...I love my Boo Boo! :x

If you want to see more pictures go here: http://zablanc.blogspot.com/2006/05/wakeup-call-4-am.html
http://zablanc.blogspot.com/2006/05/pre-op.html
http://zablanc.blogspot.com/2006/05/michele-alrrrright-lets-do-this.html
http://zablanc.blogspot.com/2006/05/michele-post-op.html
http://zablanc.blogspot.com/2006/05/michele-post-op-2.html
http://zablanc.blogspot.com/2006/05/lastlywaiting-for-prescription-to-be.html

Two More Days to Go

In two days, I will be going under the knife to find out what is wrong with me. I need to have a Laparoscopy done to determine why I'm not getting pregnant. I'm scared, but looking forward to it at that same time. I'm not sadistic....I just want to know what is wrong with me. I want it to go very smoothly, and whatever they fine they can zap away, so I can have a baby. Friday will be a very interesting day...a first for me as far as general anesthesia is concerned. I'll write about my experience when I feel better...until later!

Happy Earth Day

Dear Earth,

Happy Earth Day! I just want to start by saying I'm sorry. You have been abused for thousands of years from us stupid humans. We have taken advantage of you and who can blame you for fighting back...hurricanes, earthquakes, tornadoes, tsunamis, greenhouse effects, and so on. I'm sorry!

I'm also sorry for our government for being a bunch of cheap bastards. They treat us like shit, too. No excuses, but I just thought you should know they don't care about us either. I'm so sorry our stupid president wants to test a nuclear bomb in Nevada on June 2nd. He's a weasel, and I know hate is a strong word, but I truly hate that man. He is rotten to the core, and he simple doesn't care about anybody but himself. Not to mention he is a lying sac of shit! He's like a kid in a candy store...he has all this power and he is using it for bad instead of good. He is attacking any country he has issues with, but he doesn't consider the impact he is having on you. Dropping his bombs and creating pain and turmoil in his wake. He thinks he is protecting the American people, but all he is doing is pissing these people off. It won't be long until they retaliate and hurt us and in return hurt you.

I'm so sorry for everything...please forgive us.

Love from someone who cares

P.S. Here are song lyrics posted below from other humans who care about what is happened on you and to the people that live here. I know it doesn't really address your agony, but indirectly when people are suffering because of this man, you in turn suffer.

"Dear Mr. President"
(Pink lyrics, feat. Indigo Girls)

Dear Mr. President
Come take a walk with me
Let's pretend we're just two people and
You're not better than me
I'd like to ask you some questions if we can speak honestly
What do you feel when you see all the homeless on the street
Who do you pray for at night before you go to sleep
What do you feel when you look in the mirror
Are you proud
How do you sleep while the rest of us cry
How do you dream when a mother has no chance to say goodbye
How do you walk with your head held high
Can you even look me in the eye
And tell me why
Dear Mr. President
Were you a lonely boy
Are you a lonely boy
Are you a lonely boy
How can you say
No child is left behind
We're not dumb and we're not blind
They're all sitting in your cells
While you pave the road to hell
What kind of father would take his own daughter's rights away
And what kind of father might hate his own daughter if she were gay
I can only imagine what the first lady has to say
You've come a long way from whiskey and cocaine
How do you sleep while the rest of us cry
How do you dream when a mother has no chance to say goodbye
How do you walk with your head held high
Can you even look me in the eye
Let me tell you bout hard work
Minimum wage with a baby on the way
Let me tell you bout hard work
Rebuilding your house after the bombs took them away
Let me tell you bout hard work
Building a bed out of a cardboard box
Let me tell you bout hard work
Hard work
Hard work
You don't know nothing bout hard work
Hard work
Hard work
Oh
How do you sleep at night
How do you walk with your head held high
Dear Mr. President
You'd never take a walk with me
Would you

I Will Remember You

7 Years ago 13 people's lives were cut short, because of two deranged individuals. Like John, I too remember where I was on that day. I was working a couple of miles a way at the time, and our UPS guy told us about what was going on at Columbine. He was freaking out, because his son was there and a jock...he heard about a list where jocks were being targeted and his son's name was on that list.

I know Columbine very well! It was my neighborhood high school...it was the school I would have gone to if I didn't attend Jefferson County Open School. My younger brother went to Columbine, but thankfully he was in college when that tragedy occured. However, some of his friends in college had younger siblings there. Luckily, they were safe although emotionally damaged from what they witnessed.

When I was working at Mervyn's part-time several months later, I met a girl there who talked about what she experienced on that day. She felt comfortable opening up and expressing her experience. She was a student at Columbine and she saw things that nobody, especially someone so young, should every have to witness. It was very sad, and I was impressed by her ability to share such a devastating experience. *For the record, I didn't ask her to talk about it, she just starting talking about it one day while I was in the break room with her.*

Anyway, they are still working on raising money for the memorial. On Friday, June 16th...Bill Clinton will be giving a speech in Clement Park at 4pm. I want to definitely be there, and Chris and Pam will get to be a part of something so great that I know they won't refuse the chance to experience history in the making.

Friend of Mine
performed by Jonathan and Stephen Cohen
Columbine, flower bloom, tenderly I sing to you.
Columbine, roseblood red, heartbreak overflow my head.
Columbine, flower bloom.
Columbine there's hope for you.
Columbine, friend of mine.
To your gain, on the mark.
With your love, love again.
Comfort peace and sweet release come from you.
Where, it's true, I hide myself in you.
Can you still hear raging guns ending dreams of precious ones.
In God' son, hope will come, his red stain will take our pain.
Columbine, friend of mine.
Peace will come to you in time.
Columbine, friend of mine.
Turn a page, to your gain.
Keep your heart on the mark.
Comfort us with your love.
Love again.
Christ of grace attend this place we look to you.
Honor you.
Fix you in our view.
Columbine, flower bloom.
Tenderly I sing to you.
Columbine, roseblood red, heartbreak overflows my head.
Columbine, friend of mine.
Peace will come to you in time.
Columbine, friend of mine.

Drinking Liberally

Tonight, John and I went to a bar downtown called Double Daughters. It was an artistic looking place, and the best thing about it...IT WAS SMOKE-FREE! We went to meet Markos Moulitsas Zuniga who co-writes the blog, Daily Kos. I don't know much about the blog except for what John has shown me, but he seems like a really cool guy. Other Young Dems were there and Damon showed up.

I also met a guy, named Phil, from the Mets blog...we talked a little bit, and he was nice. John knows him the best from the blog, because they are the only ones on the blog who live in Colorado. The rest of the Mets blog people live in New York. Anyway, John and I had fun! Here is a picture of us with Markos. :)

Our 2nd Anniversary

John and I celebrated our 2nd Anniversary today. It's so weird, sometimes scary, how fast time goes. We waited til after work to enchange presents. John gave me a beautiful heart necklace, and I gave him a bear named Boo Boo from Build-A-Bear workshop. I put a personalized message inside the bear and dressed the bear in clothes that are fitting to my love, John. I'll post pictures later.

After we exchanged gifts, John and I went to Red Lobster for dinner. The one we usually go to was closed down to be remodeled, so we ended up going to another Red Lobster that is in Lakewood off of Union and 6th. We had a great time! We came back home to snuggle as we watched The Sopranos on HBO On Demand. I wish I was a hundred percent, but at least I was better than yesterday.

Happy Easter, 2006

John and I woke up this morning to give each other an Easter basket. My basket had the cute bunny in it, and John had the cute lamb. I named my bunny Dublin, because we are going to see Riverdance today. John named his lamb Peggy, because one of the candiates running this year is named Peggy Lamm. hehehehe...

As I mentioned above, we are going to see Riverdance today at 2pm. Afterwards, we are going to my parent's house for some dinner and family get together. We are also moving a fold-out couch my parents are giving us to our house. My brothers will be there so they can help move the couch with their trucks and strong bodies.

Happy Easter everyone! :)

Our full Easter baskets....mine is on the left and John's is on the right.

Hot Water Burn Baby

Funny picture from the Japanese instruction manual for the new DS Lite. I thought it was a cute picture, and I had to post it in my blog. Here is the link: www.4colorrebellion.com/archives/2006/04/15/translating-the-ds-lite-manual/ There are a lot of pictures posted from this manual...This one is my favorite!

Too Cute

John sent me this e-mail, and I had to blog it. It's so cute and funny! Why is there no Irish corporation?

POLITICS AS I UNDERSTAND IT

DEMOCRATIC

You have two cows.
Your neighbor has none.
You feel guilty for being successful.
Barbara Streisand sings for you.

REPUBLICAN

You have two cows.
Your neighbor has none.
So?

SOCIALIST

You have two cows.
The government takes one and gives it to your neighbor.
You form a cooperative to tell him how to manage his cow.

COMMUNIST

You have two cows.
The government seizes both and provides you with milk.
You wait in line for hours to get it.
It is expensive and sour.

CAPITALISM, AMERICAN STYLE

You have two cows.
You sell one, buy a bull, and build a herd of cows.

BUREAUCRACY, AMERICAN STYLE

You have two cows.
Under the new farm program the government pays you to shoot one, milk the other, and then pours the milk down the drain.

AMERICAN CORPORATION

You have two cows.
You sell one, lease it back to yourself and do an IPO on the 2nd one.
You force the two cows to produce the milk of four cows. You are surprised when one cow drops dead. You spin an announcement to the analysts stating you have downsized and are reducing expenses.
Your stock goes up.

FRENCH CORPORATION

You have two cows.
You go on strike because you want three cows.
You go to lunch and drink wine.
Life is good.

JAPANESE CORPORATION

You have two cows.
You redesign them so they are one-tenth the size of an ordinary cow and produce twenty times the milk.
They learn to travel on unbelievably crowded trains.
Most are at the top of their class at cow school.

GERMAN CORPORATION

You have two cows.
You engineer them so they are all blond, drink lots of beer, give excel llent quality milk, and run a hundred miles an hour.
Unfortunately they also demand 13 weeks of vacation per year.

ITALIAN CORPORATION

You have two cows but you don't know where they are.
While ambling around, you see a beautiful woman.
You break for lunch.
Life is good.

RUSSIAN CORPORATION

You have two cows.
You have some vodka.
You count them and learn you have five cows.
You have some more vodka.
You count them again and learn you have 42 cows.
The Mafia shows up and takes over however many cows you really have.

TALIBAN CORPORATION

You have all the cows in Afghanistan, which are two.
You don't milk them because you cannot touch any creature's private parts.
You get a $40 million grant from the US government to find alternatives to milk production but use the money to buy weapons.

IRAQI CORPORATION

You have the two cows.
They go into hiding.
They send radio tapes of their mooing.

POLISH CORPORATION

You have two bulls.
Employees are regularly maimed and killed attempting to milk them.

BELGIAN CORPORATION

You have one cow.
The cow is schizophrenic.
Sometimes the cow thinks he's French, other times he's Flemish.
The Flemish cow won't share with the French cow.
The French cow wants control of the Flemish cow's milk.
The cow asks permission to be cut in half.
The cow dies happy.

FLORIDA CORPORATION

You have a black cow and a brown cow.
Everyone votes for the best looking one.
Some of the people who actually like the brown one best accidentally vote for the black one.
Some people vote for both.
Some people vote for neither.
Some people can't figure out how to vote at all.
Finally, a bunch of guys from out-of-state tell you which one you think is the best-looking cow.

CALIFORNIA CORPORATION

You have millions of cows.
They make real California cheese.
Only five speak English.
Most are illegal's.
Arnold likes the ones with the big udders.

Daylight Savings

April is here, and we have lost an hour of sleep. Ah, spring is in the air! I'm so glad it is finally getting warmer outside. I hate the cold!

This is a busy month for John and I. We have our 2nd year anniversary on the 18th---wow, 2 years already! Easter and Riverdance on the 16th. Celebrating my mom's birthday on the 14th...her birthday is really the 13th, but she already has plans. And speaking of birthdays, we need to get a card for Pam (John's sister), Christopher (nephew), Tyler (nephew), Jackie (our friend), Chris (my brother), and my mom.

Despite all the details, this should be a great month. John and I have a lot of fun things to look forward to. We plan on going to Fort Collins to see some friends later in the month, and we also have AC on the 30th.

Very packed, fun-filled month! April showers bring May flowers!!! :)

Smoke Free

Yesterday Bill Owens did something I agree with. He signed the smoking ban into law. Yay...Colorado is smoke free! Starting July 1st, I can go to a restaurant and not smell the lingering cigarette smoke coming over the barrier between smoking and non-smoking. Happy days are here again!!!

Question

Why do we never get an answer
When we're knocking at the door
With a thousand million questions
About hate and death and war?
'Cos when we stop and look around us,
There is nothing that we need,
In a world of persecution
That is burning in its greed.

Why do we never get an answer
When we're knocking at the door
Because the truth is hard to swallow
That's what the war of love is for

It's not the way that you say it
When you do those things to me
It's more the way that you mean it
When you tell me what will be

And when you stop and think about it
You won't believe it's true
That all the love you've been giving
Has all been meant for you.

I'm looking for someone to change my life,
I'm looking for a miracle in my life
And if you could see what it's done to me,
To lose the love I knew
Could safely lead me through.

Between the silence of the mountains,
And the crashing of the sea,
There lies a land I once lived in,
And she's waiting there for me,
But in the grey of the morning,
My mind becomes confused,
Between the dead and the sleeping,
And the road that I must choose.

I'm looking for someone to change my life,
I'm looking for a miracle in my life
And if you could see what it's done to me,
To lose the love I knew,
Could safely lead me to
The land that I once knew,
To learn as we grow old
The secrets of our soul.

It's not the way that you say it
When you do those things to me
It's more the way you really mean it
When you tell me what will be

Why do we never get an answer
When we're knocking at the door
With a thousand million questions
About hate and death and war?
'Cos when we stop and look around us,
There is nothing that we need,
In a world of persecution
That is burning in its greed.
Lyrics by Moody Blues

Cold, Snowy Daze

Harmony and Cimbi did well at the vet. I think Harmony is getting Cimbi's cold, because she has been sneezing. Poor baby! They were very drugged when they came home on Friday. They could barely walk straight....they definitely would have failed a sobriety check if they were pulled over. hehehehe...

John and I never made it to Buenos Aires Pizzeria on Friday, because we took C-470 to get to 6th ave. Big mistake on our part! It was a parking lot! By the time we made it to 6th ave, we were still miles away from our destination. It was 7pm, and we were suppose to be there by 7pm. Needless to say, we canceled and went to White Fence Farm instead to eat. It was good, but I was sad they didn't have the cute teddy bear hat I wanted to get when I saw it a year ago. It would be a great hat for a baby to wear, but they didn't have it anymore. So sad! I did buy a couple of kitty hats when I went to the Cherry Creek Mall on Wednesday with Sophie. I also bought the matching booties. It was from a store that was going out of business, and I couldn't resist buying those items at such a great deal. Besides, I will eventually have children...I think buying them stuff along the way that is priced well only allows me to save in the long run. I just need the babies to wear these items and enjoy the mural I painted in the future baby room. To quote Jeanette..."Hurry up and get here!"

It's cold and snowy outside right now as I blog. Thankfully, I don't have to work tomorrow. I hate driving in snow, and I don't like it when John has to drive in it either. Maybe it will be bad enough that he will stay home with me and stay warm and be safe. Safe and sound!:)

Saint Patrick's Day

Today is St. Patty's Day, and the kitties had to get their teeth cleaned at the vet. They're still there, and my poor Harmony is having some breathing problems. Mostly due to fear but also her anesthesia high coming down. John will pick them up after work...I'm glad they are ok, and I hope Harmony continues to be okay. Poor baby!

John and I will be going downtown later to eat at a pizzeria with a friend from his work. She and her husband do restaurant reviews around Denver, and Buenos Aires Pizzeria is being reviewed tonight by their group. Pick-eaters, John and Michele will get to give their two cents worth. Sounds like fun! Later John and I will figure out something to do in Denver on Saint Patrick's Day. We're not drinkers, so that's ruled out but I'm sure we can think of something.

KISS ME, I'M IRISH!!!!! :x

Calling All Angels

Now I'm in my two weeks of the unknown period. I always try to remain hopeful even though it has been 18 months...I'm not giving up! I might have surgery to determine if I have Endometriosis. The surgery scares me...It's major surgery but not in the sense of them cutting you open and you need several days to heal. I can go home the same day of the surgery, but it doesn't change how I feel about it. I don't like going under, and I'm afraid of the outcome. I don't want to have anything wrong with me. I would be perfectly content knowing that my infertility is unexplained, and I can do other procedures to improve my chances. I just want it to all work out to be okay.

I need a sign to let me know you’re here
All of these lines are being crossed over the atmosphere
I need to know that things are gonna look up
Cause I feel us drowning in a sea spilled from a cup
When there is no place safe and no safe place to put my head
When you can feel the world shake from the words that I said

And I’m calling all angels
And I’m calling all you angels

And I won’t give up if you don’t give up
I won’t give up if you don’t give up
I won’t give up if you don’t give up
I won’t give up if you don’t give up

I need a sign to let me know you’re here
Cause my tv set just keeps it all from being clear
I want a reason for the way things have to be
I need a hand to help build up some kind of hope inside of me

And I’m calling all angels
And I’m calling all you angels

When children have to play inside so they don’t disappear
While private eyes solve marriage lies cause we dont talk for years
And football teams are kissing queens and losing sight of having dreams
In a world where all we want is only what we want untill it’s ours

And I’m calling all angels
And I’m calling all you angels
And I’m calling all angels
(I won’t give up if you don’t give up)
And I’m calling all you angels
(I won’t give up if you don’t give up)
Calling all you angels
(I won’t give up if you don’t give up)
Calling all you angels
(I won’t give up if you don’t give up)
Calling all you angels
Lyrics by: Train

Scary Adventure

On Wednesday evening, I had a scare...I found a lump in my breast. Of course, my thoughts go to all the possible bad things that could happen. Needless to say, I didn't sleep well that night, because I was so worried. Thankfully I had my Boo Boo there to comfort me and protect me. The next day, I made an appointment for Friday morning. The doctor didn't know what it was, so she schedule me for a mammogram and an ultrasound. That scared me! The appointment was for 2:15pm. I told John about it, so he knew what was going on. As I was driving home, I got a call from John telling me he was on his way home to be there with me for my afternoon appointment. I was so happy! I didn't have to be alone for this, because my sweet Boo Boo was going to be there by my side to hold my hand. I love him so!!!!

Anyway, everything turned out to be fine...it was only a cyst! They are very common and a lot of women have them. What a relief?! John and I went to celebrate at Old Chicago for dinner. Afterwards, we broke out our new dance pads for DDR, and we danced the night away.

My day started out with the song Bad Day and ended up with I Can See Clearly Now. :)

Where is the moment we need at the most
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost
They tell me your blue skies fade to grey
They tell me your passion's gone away
And I don't need no carryin' on
You stand in the line just to hit a new low
You're faking a smile with the coffee to go
You tell me your life's been way off line
You're falling to pieces everytime
And I don't need no carryin' on
Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day...
Lyrics by: Daniel Powter


I can see clearly now the rain is gone
I can see all obstacles in my way
Gone are the dark clouds that had me blind
It's gonna be a bright, bright sunshinin' day
It's gonna be a bright, bright sunshinin' day
Oh yes, I can make it now the pain is gone
All of the bad feelings have disappeared
Here is the rainbow I've been praying for
It's gonna be a bright, bright sunshinin' day
Look all around, there's nothing but blue skies
Look straight ahead, there's nothing but blue skies
I can see clearly now the rain is gone
I can see all obstacles in my way
Here's the rainbow I've been praying for
It's gonna be a bright, bright sunshinin' day
It's gonna be a bright, bright sunshinin' day
Real, real, real, real bright, bright sunshinin' day
Yeah, hey, it's gonna be a bright, bright sunshinin' day
Lyrics by: Jimmy Cliff

Broken Toy

Okay...if you couldn't have already guessed I wasn't successful at getting pregnant again. I'm not going to be too mushy and sad about it here, but I feel I still need to blog this. Heck, that is why I started this blog in the first place to write about my trials and tribulations with this whole journey. It hurts to be unsuccessful again, especially when you have people around you enjoying their pregnancy or new baby. Anyway, I'm just going to use the lyrics of a song to speak for me.
Blackbird singing in the dead of night
Take these broken wings and learn to fly
All your life
You were only waiting for this moment to arise
Blackbird singing in the dead of night
Take these sunken eyes and learn to see
All your life
You were only waiting for this moment to be free.
Blackbird fly, Blackbird fly
Into the light of a dark black night.
Blackbird fly, Blackbird fly
Into the light of a dark black night.
Blackbird singing in the dead of night
Take these broken wings and learn to fly
All your life
You were only waiting for this moment to arise
You were only waiting for this moment to arise
You were only waiting for this moment to arise
Lyrics by the Beatles

My Oldest Friendship

Here is a picture of me and my friend, Kathy. We have know each other since we were a month old....we are exactly a month apart in age...I'm 7-29 and she is 8-29. Kathy and I lived across the street from one another in Wantagh, New York. Her father is my Godfather! Throughout the years, we have lost touch here and there, but we always seem to find each other again.

My friend, Kathy had a baby boy five days ago...his picture is below. Congratulations my friend!!!!

Antonio was born on Monday, February 13, 2006 at 8:35am by Cesarean section. He was 6 pounds 13 ounces and 19.5 inches long. He was a day late. He lives in Austin, Texas with his happy mommy and daddy.

Our 5th Valentine's Day!

John and I celebrated our 5th Valentine's Day four days ago! We finally made it to Beau Jo's! On our first Valentine's, we had planned to go to Beau Jo's for dinner, but Mother Nature had a different plan. Due to snow, we ended up stopping in Evergreen at El Rancho. A fancy restaurant that we were underdressed for, but we still had fun.

On this years Valentine's, we ate pizza and had ice cream at Dairy Queen afterwards. I got John two beanie baby bears that were attached and said "I Love You, Forever". I also bought him a sweet card and lots of chocolate--his favorite, chocolate covered marshmallow hearts. Mmmmmmm! John got me a very cute groundhog stuffed animal, a M&M candy guy, and a very sweet card with Winnie the Pooh. We decided to name the groundhog Evergreen, since that is the town we celebrated our 1st Valentine's Day in. We also decided that the groundhog is Italian, and we need to find him an Italian shirt. Cute!

I'm using this song in this blog, because one of our Dance Dance Revolution songs, that John and I liked to dance to, is this song, "Heaven"...it's a remix on DDR, but the original artist is Bryan Adams. These are his lyrics below:

Oh - thinkin' about all our younger years
There was only you and me
We were young and wild and free

Now nothin' can take you away from me
We bin down that road before
But that's over now
You keep me comin' back for more

Baby you're all that I want
When you're lyin' here in my arms
I'm findin' it hard to believe
We're in heaven
And love is all that I need
And I found it there in your heart
It isn't too hard to see
We're in heaven

Oh - once in your life you find someone
Who will turn your world around
Bring you up when you're feelin' down

Ya - nothin' could change what you mean to me
Oh there's lots that I could say
But just hold me now
Cause our love will light the way

N' baby you're all that I want
When you're lyin' here in my arms
I'm findin' it hard to believe
We're in heaven
And love is all that I need
And I found it there in your heart
It isn't too hard to see
We're in heaven

I've bin waitin' for so long
For something to arrive
For love to come along

Now our dreams are comin' true
Through the good times and the bad
Ya - I'll be standin' there by you

Curious George Icon

Here is a picture of my new icon on Instant Messenger. I think it is very cute! I like Curious George, and I like that he is painting.

This song is totally unrelated to this blog, but I'm still trying get through tough things in my life. I think this song fits into that.

Learn To Be Still by The Eagles

It's just another day in paradise as you stumble to your bed.
You'd give anything to silence those voices ringing in your head.
You thought you could find happiness just over that green hill.
You thought you would be satisfied but you never will learn to be still, learn to be still.

We are like sheep without a shepherd, we don't know how to be alone.
So we wander 'round this desert and wind up following the wrong gods home.
But the flock cries out for another and they keep answering that bell.
And one more starry-eyed messiah meets a violent farewell. Learn to be still, learn to be still.

Now the flowers in your garden, they don't smell so sweet, so sweet.
Maybe you've forgotten the heaven lying at your feet.

There are so many contradictions in all these messages we send.
We keep asking how do I get out of here? Where do I fit in?
Though the world is torn and shaken, even if your heart is breaking,
it's waiting for you to awaken and someday you will learn to be still, learn to be still.
You just keep on running, keep on running…

Just Another Day...

I just found out this evening that my friend, Amanda is pregnant. She is due in August. I'm happy for her, but at the same time my heart is breaking. I want that for me! I just don't understand why I'm having such a hard time getting pregnant. It only took Amanda 3 months, and she was on birth control pills for awhile before she stopped to try to conceive. It doesn't really mean that much, but it can effect things for some women that have been on birth control pills for awhile. I don't want to sound selfish, but at the same time, I can't stop feeling so blue. I just don't get it! Maybe the doctor can help me tomorrow...I just need help before I lose my mind.

Good is good and bad is bad
You don't know which one you had
She put your books out on the sidewalk
Now they're blowing 'round
They won't help you when you're down

Love's on your list of things to do
To bring your good luck back to you
And if you think that everything's unfair
Would you care if you're the last one standing there

And everytime you hear the rolling thunder
You turn around before the lightening strikes
And does it ever make you stop and wonder
If all your good times pass you by

I don't hold no mystery
But I can show you how to turn the key
Cause all I know is where I started
So downhearted
And that's not where you want to be

And everytime you hear the rolling thunder
You turn around before the lightening strikes
And you could find a rock to crawl right under
If all your good times pass you by

When the day is done
And the world is sleeping
And the moon is on its way to rise
When your friends are gone
You thought were so worth keeping
You feel you don't belong
And you don't know why

And everytime you hear the rolling thunder
You turn around before the lightening strikes
And does it ever make you stop and wonder
If all your good times pass you by

When the day is done
And the world is sleeping
And the moon is on its way to rise
When your friends are gone
You thought were so worth keeping
You feel you don't belong
Neither do I
Lyrics by Sheryl Crow

Something is Wrong....

My body is falling apart! I just haven't been feeling that great for three weeks now. My stomach has been upset on and off during that time. I don't know if it is too much stress getting to me or what. I've been feeling weak and tired, too. I'm going to schedule a doctor's appointment for Friday, if I can, and see what might be going on. It could be my Thyroid or something else. I could say it was pregnancy related, but I got my period last week. *Sigh*